IT’S BEEN A MONTH

Hellooo, let me see what I have written down in my diary, cause I don’t really remember much what we have done lately.

21st of March, I got some sad news about a family member. They found her dead in her bed in her apartment. It’s her heart. I’m sad that I didn’t get to go to the funeral. Stuck here.

23rd of March, one of my friends who streams, had 2 year anniversary on Twitch and I watched that until we went to a Vietnamese restaurant to eat dinner and went to Dutch Bros after. Got myself a Nitro Cold Brew.

24th of March, finally some good news, my cousin got a baby girl!

29th of March, my mom’s birthday! Sad that I didn’t get to celebrate with her.

31st of March, went to the in-laws for dinner and I ate too much carrots and dip that it resulted in a small diarrhea, while I was there, great. It’s a great dinner, but the carrots ruined my dessert mood.

9th of April, finally got my own car. Now I gotta man up and get driving. Also taking duolingo for German, Spanish and Japanese. Went to the doctor and took a blood test for my thyroid and went to Walgreens for my final shot of HepA+B.

I have been driving around with Sam twice now, but I still get that weird feeling in my leg whenever I’m in a downhill or uphill, standing still, pressing on the brake pedal. It’s the same feeling that I got when I was waitressing, when I felt like I didn’t have control over my tray and it felt like it’s gonna fall off my hand. It’s a horrible feeling and I don’t know what I can do with that. So when I press my foot against the brake, I get scared that my foot will get tired and just remove itself from it, and in normal situations, you have control over your foot, but I feel that I don’t. So that’s something I’m really struggling with when I drive.